It's not you, it's.....

The fact that it's got to the point where I cannot blog, draw, let alone think until I am on sick leave.

That's right people, I have to get a high fever before I get enough time off the rest my body, mind, and soul, enough to just be. To be me and create the things I wanna create. Believe me, I'm "up ta here with this shit."
But! Thank goodness! Thank GODDESS! things will change. It will be you sooo much better in July when I am Free!

Then things will get exciting.
You'll see!

Thank's for reading,
E

First Saturday

Saturday, Saturday, Saturday.

I'm thinking about lot's of things. I have to do a little bit of stuff. In a minute.. I have been having flu, but then it got better. Yesterday I was in bed a lot. Thanks to my boss for getting rid of me early yesterday!

Nice, Sarah just stopped by. Lol. That really improved my mood. I was about to go on about all those woulda' coulda' shoulda's out there in my history but now I feel a little bit better. A bit more calm and forward thinking.
It's funny because I am sort of trying to edge into using lots of Finnish. I feel sort of confident and really scared, but I am managing.

Hmmm. I wonder what I should do this afternoon. I am feeling well but not well enough to go wandering around or anything like that. Just well enough not to be in bed. And I don't want to be sitting at home cleaning or being cold because my place needs some air... Saturday, saturday, saturday, oh what have you become?

P.s. for more information about my prince: Things are going good, we have been going, and it has been good. We have been talking, and talking makes a difference. It also makes a big difference that it feels like we are talking about the right things at the right time. I dunno. Things are going.

Also I found this interesting piece about relationships that was part of the UCLA MFA show, check it out: http://the-flog.com/2009/11/ucla-mfa-2010-exhibition/

Shocker!

My co found this blog. I deleted it now for a second, but it didn't feel right. In a way having this blog makes me feel more real. Like I have my own space, and in a way I am so confident that no one really reads it that it is a comforting little diary.
I read through what I have been writing and it doesn't look as bad as I thought it was when I wrote it.

We talked tonight and it was truly wonderful to hear his voice.

We are coming through yet another rough patch and everything feels shaky. A lot is changing, but I think they are changing for the better. I am hopeful and confident that things will work themselves out. There is always this fear that things will just repeat and repeat. That the arguments and the issues will just never go away. But I don't think that's true. I mean, some things will never change. But others will have to.